i will rise out of it.
promise you.
no more will i exchange condensed explosives with you,
it is too sinful a pleasure to indulge in.
keep me under lock and key, someone please.
let this be my reminder today, everyday.
i'll be able to steady that stare, unflinching, one day.

sometimes id wish to do something really crazy, for once.
routine, mundaneness of it all, its killing me.
missing out on non-action? no thanks.
let me go, free, with no lead weights of conventions and restraints.
someday, a happier me would be windsurfing, bike- racing, kite-flying.
go higher, sink deeper, see farther.
actual contact of mercury behind glass.